Normal

And so I join the ever-growing ranks of the prescription drug nation. After a bout of depersonalization, anxiety, and depression like no other, I decided to seek some 'professional' help. Nothing too hardcore to start with, just some Buspirone and Trazodone to keep the chemicals in my head balanced. I've gone from not recognizing myself in the mirror, to a rather stormy wave of 'normalness.' I'm looking forward to feeling whole again (hopefully soon) - I hate worrying my girlfriend. I haven't been to class all week, something I should probably remedy. After the paranoid feelings had somewhat subsided, I was able to 'finish' three canvases, and more-or-less destroyed my room and patio in the process. Paint, ink, aerosol - I love them. It's weird, I feel almost happy; I just hope it's genuine. I want to feel whole again.